Hintz Adventures, Big and Small

8 days...

2012-01-30T13:14:00.002-06:00

We are 8 days away from meeting our little Sweet Pea. And planning is in full effect. This weekend my family came and we made freezer meals and cleaned the baby's room. Today, I had my last appointment before the big day. 2 centimeters dilated and baby is right there. Doesn't matter too much, but nice to know. It did light a fire under me to get my bags packed!

There is much more to think about this time, since Annabelle will be staying home with Papa Hintz for a few days. I want to be sure the house has food stocked and clean clothes and anything else that will help the 2 of them have a great couple of days. I am anxious to have her with us, but nervous about how she'll react to the hospital.

Since October (my last post), we have had 5 more ultrasounds! And in all of them, the baby has passed with flying colors...thank God. Growing right on schedule and moving tons. This baby has proven to be quite strong as the movements can sometimes lean on the painful side. Not sure if it has to do with scarring from the last C-section or gallbladder surgery. Nothing to be concerned about, but I'm sure it makes those areas more tender.

And as for Annabelle, she continues to make us fall head over heels in love with her. She is talking (even some two word phrases) and has some strong opinions. This morning she requested I put her shoes on before we even ate breakfast. (The funny part of the story is that I thought she was asking for juice until she stuck her foot out!) She is growing like a weed and for the most part, very happy.

She is currently getting her 2 year molars...at 19 months!!! Who knew this could happen so early. I just feel terrible for her when she's in so much pain.

She is also asserting her independence. We are working on listening to mom and doing what she is asked. These can be extremely challenging things, but I'm so grateful for who she is becoming.

Introducing...

2011-10-06T09:21:00.007-05:00

Sweet Pea! Of course, again, we did not find out Sweet Pea's sex... we didn't really even consider it. But it is amazing that in their profile view, Sweet Pea and Annabelle look a lot alike :) Baby is growing well and developing properly. Only one small hiccup with the umbilical cord that they will check on again around 28 weeks. But the doctor made it seem like no big deal.

So, ta da!

And here I am at 20.5 weeks...

Annabelle did not take too kindly to the ultrasound procedure. She was very upset by the goo and that mommy had to lay on a table. I believe she thought they were hurting me. Daddy was there for comfort, but for most of the ultrasound, she had to sit on the table by me. As difficult as it was, it was rather charming.

Sweet Pea's got moves!

2011-10-01T15:43:00.001-05:00

I have been feeling it for two or three weeks now, but Joel finally got to feel the kicks today.
Obviously Sweet Pea loves Door County Mint Meltaways!

Hot!

2011-09-26T14:11:00.004-05:00

Lower your butt all the way to the floor, wait for Mom to say "Ready?!", and then try as hard as you can to get your feet off the floor while Mom yells "JUMP!".

If anyone tells her she actually needs to get air underneath her feet to consider it jumping, I will deny them at all costs.

My little charmer never ceases to amaze. When she dances, she rocks so hard, she typically falls over sideways. She is currently in to stomping her feet fast on the ground. She also reaches into anything that appears to hold objects, and pulls out make believe food and feeds herself.

But I will always store in my heart that scene that happened at Grandpa and Grandma Lullo's house last weekend. Annabelle had been napping and woke up to discover a fire in the fireplace. As she hasn't seen one since she was tiny, she was very curious. She inched her way closer to the fireplace, and when she got close enough, I said "hot!". She immediately got this concerned look on her face, and then puffed her cheeks out and blew! Between my mom and myself, you would think it was the funniest thing you had ever seen. She continued to do it for the next 20 minutes and will do it now if I show her a video of a fire. See, she connected hot things and blowing because when her food is hot, we blow on it to cool it off. Amazing!

She had her 15 month appointment on Friday (along with 4 shots!), and she is right on target in all areas. 70% for weight, 60% for height, and 38% for head circumference.

10 days from now we get to see Sweet Pea!

Squirt and Sweet Pea

2011-09-11T22:33:00.001-05:00

Both are growing so much I can't believe it!

Last week, I got the joy of hearing Sweet Pea's heartbeat again! On the monitor, it sounds like galloping horses...150 bpm. Steady as could be....that was after the doctor had to hunt down that heartbeat due to lots of movement. The doctor also mentioned that in 3 months, we'll be able to schedule the c-section. Weird!! Seems like Sweet Peas will be here around the second week of February, unless there are plans we don't know about yet.

Squirt (aka Annabelle) is making major strides cognitively. She is now putting her toys back in baskets when asked and prompted...though I would stop far short of calling it cleaning up. She also gained at least 2 molars this weekend, and possibly more, though she has no interest in Mommy sticking her fingers in her mouth to find out.

Joel turned 31 this weekend! We celebrated with the Packer's (along with the Hintz boys), the Brewer's (Joel's Dad, Annabelle and I surprised him at work), and the Lullo's. We are sure a blessed family and remind each other of that as often as we can.

Mommy Heaven

2011-08-10T10:22:00.003-05:00

I am in mommy heaven this morning.

Yesterday, I had my 12 week appointment for Sweet Pea. They have this new device that is basically a handheld ultrasound machine. I got to see the baby doing somersaults and waving its arms. I didn't get to hear the heartbeat, but I did get to see it. So clearly, we're all healthy! The appointments the second time around are so much faster. She must have asked me 3 times if I had any questions, and I racked my brain, but none came up.

Also, we got a new doc. And so far, we love her. We talked with her at the first appointment about the whole C-section/VBAC possibility. She was straight forward with her information. I really wanted to be able to try for a VBAC (vaginal birth after C-section) this time, and she made me feel that it is an option. But, through her wisdom and gentleness, she shared with us that if the babies were 18 months apart, the risk would be too high. If the were going to be 2 years apart, the choice would be completely ours (risks are fairly even for VBAC or C-section). But at 20 months (which Sweet Pea and Annabelle will be), its hard to know. Take into consideration that the doctors could not determine why Annabelle never dropped, the doctor found that to be concerning. We also have the wisdom of Joel's uncle (an anesthesiologist), who was very concerned for us to try for VBAC. Though the decision has yet to be made, we are definitely leaning towards a planned C-section.

As for Annabelle, she is wonderful! For the first time in weeks, Annabelle and I have no where to go today. This morning I just watched her walk up and down our block. My eyes filled with tears as I thought about what a blessing she is to me, to Joel, and to our family and friends. She is something special.

catching up...oops!

2011-07-22T14:28:00.003-05:00

It has been a long time since I have posted here. We have been enjoying our summer to its fullest potential!

Annabelle is a toddler now. She is walking and jabbering and even doing sign language! She can say please (and how is it that even through sign language she can be demanding?!), more, milk, and all done. Joel and I love to watch her develop cognitively. She is just putting the pieces of the world together. She knows where her hair, nose, eyes, toes and belly button are. She still gives a cheesy smile when you bring the camera out and squints her eyes at the light from the video camera.

Her food repertoire is expanding. She loves bananas, toast with peanut butter, Mexican rice, and today she had Thai spring rolls! Unfortunately, she's not currently digging her vegetables.

She has two naps a day, and clearly still needs them both. She sleeps anywhere between 11 and 12 hours a night. We have the occasional wake up, which I always attribute to teeth pain.

This week, she is starting to love being in the water. If she peaks out the back door and sees her pool, I can't get her out there fast enough. She mostly likes to stand in it, bend down and splash, and play with her toys. I am trying to be intentional with laying her down on her back in the water and sprawling her out on her front... she just laughs at me!

Which is the other new thing about Annabelle...she's getting her "own personality". In so many ways, it's adorable. And then there are those moments when she's melting down over a book, a shirt, the way I took her out of her bed, etc... there is no way for me to decipher what it is she wants! From what I hear, its just the age and their frustration over not being able to communicate.

The personality trait that is most clear about Annabelle is that she loves people. She is the greeting committee no matter where we are, waving at any person that she can see... no matter how far away they are. Her smile charms even the most stubborn of people. And if they take the time to talk to her, she is in heaven.

We love her more and more all the time.

I decided to include this video. It will not win me the mom of the year award. I know she can seriously injure herself crawling and walking with an object in her mouth...she survived! :) But since then, I did put the kazoo in a hard to reach spot so she can only play while being supervised...and not while walking around! It is still one of the funniest videos of her that I have! :)

Air travel with a one year old

2011-06-11T13:41:00.003-05:00

Survived, and dare I say, thrived? I should probably not until we make the trip back.

Two days ago, I was rather anxious about our 16 hour day of travel with a baby who doesn't sleep anywhere but in a crib.

Last night at 9:30 p.m. PST, Annabelle went to sleep in a pack n play in a hotel room. Other than that, she had slept all of 1 hour the rest of the day. The best part? No crying, screaming, freaking out, or other such behavior. She made lots of new friends, had some moments of fussyness, and ate way too many puffs. I'm sure she picked up some infectious disease as I let here crawl all over the airport floor, but she needed to work off some energy.

The guys at TSA were awesome to us. Yes, that is what I said. Our car seat came back in one piece. Yep.

Not sure if it helped but we used these ear cover things we bought to protect her ears from loud noises (ie. Dad working on the house), and I remembered they mentioned they can help with air pressure in the plane. Other than needing to distract her from the large things on her head...they worked like a charm.

We were all exhausted by the end.

But one of my favorite moments for me was sitting next to her in the car on the way to the hotel. She would chit chat and then suck her thumb. And every time she put her thumb in her mouth, she would reach over and put her hand on my arm. For a baby who doesn't cuddle, it melted this mother's heart.

She is the best. And in 9 days, we get the joy of celebrating her birth. What a year...

memorial day weekend

2011-06-01T10:03:00.005-05:00

Busy! Family visits, wedding, parades, pool, and finished projects galore!

Check this out... happy birthday to me! Joel amazes me over and over again with his abilities. You would never know this wasn't in the original home. What a gift! (To see the before picture: http://hintzadventures.blogspot.com/2011/05/p-word.html)

Annabelle was a trooper as we carted her around from place to place...even spending her first night away from us since she was a few months old. The sleepover at Grandpa's was a success!

On Monday, all the projects were complete and we had nothing on the schedule. We took Annabelle to the Memorial Day parade. She loved the bands, especially the flags! In the afternoon, we set up her pool and let her splash around. We have to watch her closely because she has absolutely no fear. She was crawling around in it and kept sticking her face in. As you can see by the next picture, she is getting brave with her standing but has yet to attempt that first step.

Looking adorable in her gear to go swimming...

We leave for California in 9 days!

Finished

2011-05-17T09:00:00.001-05:00

Though we still have college furniture, the basement is done!!

The "P" word

2011-05-14T10:04:00.008-05:00

In our home, that "P" word is PROJECT. Joel has a constant list of them going on in his head at all times.

A couple weeks ago, we had a small breakdown about our basement. It's been the ugliest two shades of yellow since I moved in. And since we put our only t.v. and computer down there, we see it more often than we used to. I wanted to repaint and clean out some of the junk we had been keeping. I also wanted a small corner for Annabelle to keep some toys in.

BEFORE (the beautiful model is Sarah Peterson who was my first roommate):

AFTER (This is an unfair picture but part of the basement is still getting work done, so you'll have to wait for the full finished version!) This doorway did not have any casing or molding on it before.

Joel finished the other side of the basement before Annabelle was born.

The second project is something we have discussed for a long time. We currently have no access to our backyard (small as it might be) from the inside of the house. You have to either go through the garage or the front door. Since we got married, I have been asking for a sliding door from our dining room. And I'm getting it!

Here is the before shot (the door is going where the window on the left currently is):

Once it is finished, I will present the new and improved!

The last project (for the time being) is the toy box that Joel is building for Annabelle for her first birthday. I can't wait to show it off, but again, you'll have to wait for the pictures!

Milestones

2011-04-30T22:01:00.006-05:00

I hit a milestone. Yep. I prepared my first meal with a clingy child holding on to my legs. At night, Annabelle is wanting a little more attention than usual. The kitchen was littered with blocks and Tupperware and spoons, but Annabelle only wanted me.

Annabelle also reached a sweet milestone. She now plays "So big" with us! I'm not sure if other parents have felt this way, but it is about the sweetest thi

ng you'll ever see.

Let me show you...

What's fun for us lately, is that she's starting to see cause and effect. As in, when the camera comes out, the flash goes off. Therefore, I should blink my eyes so I don't have to see so many spots.

Evidence #1 (she's also showing off her mouth full of teeth and looking completely ridiculous!):

Evidence #2 (and what I think is cuter than the first):

a year later

2011-04-24T21:00:00.002-05:00

Easter 2010Easter 2011

How deep the Father's love for us

2011-04-23T05:41:00.001-05:00

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He would give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross
My guilt upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no powr's, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Holy Week

2011-04-19T15:31:00.001-05:00

It is interesting that as we are creeping our way towards Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, and Easter, that I am reading about the birth of Christ in the book of Luke.

Today I was reading about two characters that we don't talk much about. Simeon and Anna. They both encounter Jesus as a baby. And they both proclaim that he will bring redemption and salvation. We're talking about a baby here...really?

What incredible faith.

As I was thinking about that, attempting to picture it in my head, the FedEx man was knocking on my neighbor's door. And my mind was filled with new images.

Make the jump with me.

Jesus comes to my door. I let him in. Do I recognize Him? Am I humble enough to lower myself to my knees and worship Him? Here. For real.

I wish I could say it was easy to picture and my heart leapt with joy just thinking about it. The truth? I couldn't even picture it. I couldn't picture myself on the floor of my home at the feet of a man. At the feet of Jesus. Even after so many years of attempting to follow Him. My mind drew a blank.

My prayer this Holy week is that God would move my faith from my head to my heart as He has done so many times before. And that from there, it would pollute my whole life.

Good Friday. The Cross. The silence of Saturday. Easter. Resurrection Sunday.

I stand at the door and knock. Revelations 3:20.

Sippin'

2011-04-17T20:00:00.004-05:00

We're officially down to one bottle a day.

Awesome.

And we're now bouncing in our bed during nap time, instead of napping.

Umm....yay?

Easter Egg Hunt

2011-04-17T19:51:00.003-05:00

In case you were wondering, she liked it! Actually, this is the worship time before the actual egg part. She liked it best. Music, balloons, kids, dancing... pretty much everything she loves in the world.

Excited to see her friends!

With Emma... who was sticking the stickers, while Annabelle was eating them. They made a good pair!

Sippy Cups And Graham Crackers

2011-04-15T16:20:00.002-05:00

They got to me today. See, everyone says to cherish every moment. This blog is my attempt to do that. I don't care if others care about Annabelle's daily activities. I do.

Today, Annabelle had snack time. A sippy full of milk (formula) and graham crackers broken to bits. It's only taken me a week to wean Annabelle to sippy cups (except bedtime, because I'm unwilling). I leaned up to her little face and told her just how proud I am of her, and she leaned forward and rubbed her nose to mine. And I cracked. I had to walk away and look at her from the hallway with tears in my eyes.

Sippy cups and snack time and shoes and standing in her crib. Need I say more. I'm cherishing this moment. Because before long it will be regular cups and eating without my assistance and tying her shoes. I'm even cherishing changing her diaper because before long she won't need me.

And as sweet as she is, I went back in the kitchen for another nose rub, and all I got was a hand in the face.

See, that's why I cherish.

Blogsy

2011-04-13T10:45:00.001-05:00

For Christmas I received an iPad! Besides Annabelle, it is my constant companion. It may also be part of the reason have struggled to keep up with blogging as it is not easy to do through the iPad.

But they just released an app called "blogsy", which I am currently trying out. As I am not much of a blogger, I will probably not get the chance to use all of it's nuances, but I already enjoy how easy it is to post something.

So here's to more thoughts from me!

Weaning

2011-04-12T23:48:00.001-05:00

For some reason, I never thought about it. I mean, I had to wean from the pump, but that was fairly uneventful and didn't involve Annabelle.

And there in lies the problem. I forgot about the bottle. The other day I decided it was time. She's eating three meals a day and will drink from her sippy cup. I read somewhere that you can just try to go cold turkey. And as Annabelle has transitioned easily in the past, I thought this would go easily too.

But the problem isn't her. I mean, she'd clearly prefer the bottle, and eats much more when I give it to her. But the problem is me. I'm the one laying in bed at 11:30 at night considering if it is really necessary just yet, or if I introduced the cup early enough, or if I should just go right to the cup, or if I should just wait until she's one. And the bottom line is, I'm bummed.

I haven't grieved that she's growing up. Every stage of her development has been more fun than the last. And right now, she is the star of my world (and really, anyone else she encounters). But she'll barely sit in your lap long enough to get one sock on her. Except at bottle time. I will miss that time so much. And at 11:30 at night, I feel it warrants a short, but therapeutic cry.

Sunday night, as we were literally walking Annabelle upstairs for bedtime, the sirens went off. We knew there was a storm coming, but didn't expect that. Being the worrier that I am, I turned us right back around and asked Joel (maybe forcefully) to put up her pack and play. She usually has no problems sleeping there, but that night she wasn't having it.

This posed us with a slight problem. For those of you that don't know Annabelle personally, she's not much for relaxing in your arms and drifting off to sleep. No, it goes more like the battle to keep a slippery, wet fish in your hands.

And that's how it started. I laid down on the couch with her with the tv muted so that I could keep an eye on the storm. She would watch the tv and then glance over at her dad and then watch tv and then writhe her body around to see the lightning through the windows and then watch the tv. Slowly I started to notice she was giving up.

So I began to hum "you are my sunshine", which is the song I always sing to her at bedtime. She would lay here head down on my chest and begin to make noises, as if mimicking the noise she could hear from my chest. It made me giggle. Which made her fake laugh in hope that I would giggle again, which I did, and the cycle continued for long enough that I could recognize, and memorize, what was happening. My heart warms now just remembering.

And she eventually fell asleep. And I held her until I knew I had to put her in her bed.

And even though I will miss our times with the bottle, I am praying for times when there will be no bottle, but only a need for safety, or warmth, or just plain cuddle time. And though those times may only come once in awhile, they will be ours alone.

My girl's a reader!

2011-04-07T11:12:00.003-05:00

Not quite yet, but she's a page turner, so we're heading in the right direction. This video may be long and boring to some, but I know we have family that will appreciate it! I am proud of her... but especially love the cheesy smile she keeps flashing for the camera. I actually think she's squinting her eyes due to the bright light coming out of the camera. This is just two videos from last night of her reading, and then crawling.

Weekend getaway

2011-03-28T17:40:00.002-05:00

Potbelly roast beef.

Caribou.

Lou Malnati's deep dish. Free appetizer.

Flaco's Tacos (amazing find).

Tuscany in little Italy. Butternut squash ravioli with browned butter and nuts.

Dunkin' Donuts.

Italian beef sandwiches with the Lullo's.

Is it bad that I judge a successful trip on the quality of food consumed? Based on the above menu...our trip received an A+!

Annabelle and the city of Chicago are now BFF's. She loved it so much she chose not to do much napping, but was an incredibly well behaved and happy girl. I continue to be proud and impressed by her everyday!

Joel and I got the gift of going out on a date on Saturday night (thanks to Auntie Carrie!). We boarded up on the Blue Line and headed towards Little Italy where we had a fabulous dinner at Tuscany's. Then we ventured to the Redhead Piano Bar. May not seem like a big deal to most, but due to many trips to the Hard Rock Cafe with my family in younger years, I had always wanted to try it. Very fun!

All in all, we came home well fed and exhausted. And closer to each other.

Appointment

2011-03-22T17:35:00.002-05:00

Believe it or not, We have had an eventful couple of days. Well, in Annabelle terms, anyway.

Yesterday she gave me a big surprise when she decided to push up on all fours and, slowly and methodically the way she does everything, begin to scoot her legs and arms. Crawling. Though she hates it. She whines with each move of her limbs. But let her hold onto your fingers and she is ecstastic.

Today was the doctor visit. She's big. 20 lbs, 2 oz. 27.75 inches. Ear infection cleared up. Doc not worried if she wants to walk before she fully starts crawling. No shots...hurray! And he basically told me to trust myself regarding food...clearly she's eating okay! I let her drink out of a real cup the other day. She kinda liked it, but the mess is a lot to deal with. She's getting better with the sippy cup, so we may start to wean out the bottle a little bit.

Our little family is a true thing of joy. Joel is an adoring father, and as mentioned before, the feeling is mutual. The rhythm of our life is healthy and moving right along to summer.

This weekend we are embarking on another little adventure. Our vacation time this year is filled with extended family trips and bear hunting for Joel. In a desire to still get in a family vacation with the three of us, we are heading to the Windy City. I know that sounds crazy since we are near there all the time, but we never get the chance to get down to the city. It's close and convenient for a quick trip, and we even have free babysitting one night! To all my family and friends near there, we love you dearly, but are really looking forward to the time jus the three of us. Hopefully we'll be back soon for visiting with family and friends!

525,600 minutes

2011-03-20T10:49:00.002-05:00

Well, not quite. I don't know what the math would be for 9 months, but it's been lot of minutes!

Annabelle is nine months today! As one of my friends so aptly put about her daughter, she's been outside now as long as she was inside!

And we're crazy about her. Her smile, her expressions, her toes, her chatter...we can even tolerate the snot and spit up because of our love for her.

One of my favorite moments with her is when she sees her daddy walk through the door at the end of the day. She takes a moment to let it all register and then, a smile that could light up the worlds breaks out across her face. Her arms start to wave and her feet start to kick. As much as we love her, I like to think the feeling is mutual.

Speaking of waving, Annabelle is starting to wave at people. Or, at least she's mimicking the waving people do at her.

And she's cruising. Crawling, that's for babies...I don't crawl mom. But put me on my little feet and I'm the happiest little girl. With support, either someone's hands or a piece of furniture, she moves those little feet to explore the world. Not sure how things are going to develop from here, but crawling isn't happening in the near future!

We take her to the doctor this week...look for a report after that.

Happy 9 months in this world, my sweet Annabelle.

My Outside World

2011-03-06T14:44:00.003-06:00

My family, for the most part, is my world.

But I have had the wonderful opportunity to be involved with Young Life (http://www.younglife.org/) for over 13 years now. And with the help of my husband, I have been able to continue hanging out with some awesome high school friends even as a mom.

On Mondays nights, I kiss my husband and little girl while they're eating their dinner, put my guitar on the seat where Annabelle is usually attempting an escape from her car seat, and head towards Neenah.

I meet with some crazy adults who feel similarly as I do, and then we wait. As the time approachs, we set up sound systems and overhead projectors. We sing along to Taio Cruz and Katy Perry and drink as much caffeine as possible.

And before long, they come. Usually in pairs. Usually through the back door. They feel comfortable, almost at home. They eat whatever we leave out for them and know exactly where to find the drinks. When critical mass seems to have entered, they come on up.

Their energy, even on a Monday night, is contagious. Since I lead music, I get to stand up front and watch as they run across the room, fighting over the two couches, with the look of anticipation.

They are incredible. We play games, sing songs, and when the time has come, we talk about Jesus. Nothing gets old about that. "The basics" we call it. But do we need anymore than that? He was and is and will be incredible, miraculous, God.

And then the best part, we sit and talk and listen to music. They play ping pong and cards and hang around as long as they want. They keep me young.

Tonight we have our annual Young Life fundraising banquet. Though it is not meant to be for me, I always leave encouraged and reminded of why I do this in the first place.

March Madness

2011-03-01T20:26:00.011-06:00

Anyone who lives in Wisconsin (or anywhere in the midwest) will tell you that winter is long. Some make the best of it with skiing and sledding and cross country skiing. But even those people are starting to get squirmy right now. And those of us with small people in our homes may be even more itchy to get out. This mom definitely is. Annabelle will love to get outside...all kinds of new things to discover and touch and inevitably, put in her mouth. Oh, and the parks, so many, so little time.

But we did our best to make the best out of winter. One of the keys to our sanity in January and February was swim class. That's right...Annabelle took swim class at 6 months old. Through that class and Book Babies at the library, we made some new friends. Here is Annabelle with Kallyn and Sawyer (and mommys Denyal and Caitlyn).

We have had playdates and lunch dates and visitors. Recently, I agreed to do some subbing at a local private school where Annabelle will be at the childcare right in the building.

But between now (Annabelle is 8 months old) and the last time I posted, so much more has happened. I was able to pump until Annabelle was six months and she had milk until her 7th month. Though I wish she was still receiving milk...life is much less complicated now. Formula has one thing going for it - convenience. Not a selling point, but definitely a plus. Adding solids was a breeze with this little hungry monster...she loves to eat, and in particular loves to feed herself.

Annabelle has so much personality. She's clapping (well, really close), standing, pushing herself around, chatting, and so much more. Her personality is becoming more apparent the older she gets. She loves people! And that is an understatement. She loves to sleep, but wakes up with a smile. Bath time is the highlight of her day. Here is a video of her attempting patty cake with her Grandma L.

Hopefully as I keep up, my writing will be more eloquent or at least, interesting. For now, I just wanted to get an update on here.

The anniversary of my grandmother's death just passed. Here is what I had to say about that: http://www.carpentertradition.blogspot.com/.

4 months

2010-10-25T12:38:00.003-05:00

Today Annabelle had her 4 month appointment. All went well (including two shots... boo). She is 14 pounds 1 oz. and in the 57th percentile for weight. For height, she is 25" and in the 74th! Our little girl is healthy and definitely growing!

I'm proud to say that we are still pumping and Annabelle is still receiving breastmilk. Every day that ticks by I remember that all the work is worth it. We even have a freezer full of milk, so that whenever we decide to stop, there will still be milk for quite awhile. My first goal is still 6 months. We'll see where we are from there.

This weekend we took a trip "up north" to the cottage. Joel bow hunted and we just relaxed in the cottage with Aunt Anna, Amanda, and Brinley. Annabelle was entertaining us all with her giggles and her new trick, blowing raspberries! The second one is funny and yet, not so cute! :)

She also rolled from her back to her front yesterday for the first time!

We're actually home for a few weeks now before the holidays have us travelling again.

so much change

2010-10-14T09:49:00.003-05:00

Change is not a word that comes easily to most people. And in some it strikes fear to their very core.

I thought I was good with change.

Until a 4 month old taught me the true meaning of change. As in every day. No two days look alike. She grabs her toes and squirms around in her crib. She eats at different times and sleeps through the night (hurray!). She grows out of new clothes (and diapers) all the time. She loves to sit up and look around and take in the world. She sucks her thumb and pulls out her pacifier (hurray again!).

Her cheeks are rounder and her thighs are ticklish. She responds to touch. She knows what her bottle is and is on the verge of pulling out of my hands.

And she's only 4 months old. The changes are coming quick now and I have to be on my toes.

Some women I know say "I'm so fluid - I mold to anything you put me in." Probably my most important lesson in being a mom. Things always change. Just when you think you have it figured out, she's on to something else.

Thank you, Annabelle.

lazy

2010-09-24T09:31:00.004-05:00

Well, not really lazy, but busy. It's amazing how much work it is to keep up with the house, hang out with my girl, and try to get us out once in awhile.

For those of you that aren't in the direct vacinity, you wouldn't know there is another complicating factor. I'm pumping. Exclusively. That means that every 3 hours for 20 minutes, I have to sit on my bed with myself all hooked up.

It has been a hard road. And very emotional. We have received lots of advice on how we could get her to latch, but nothing seemed to work and eating time was not good. And for the most part, pumping is okay. But it does limit the length of time we can leave the house. And complicates travelling - though this weekend we had no problems. I even took the pump to the Country Music Hall of Fame and used their First Aid room to pump.

The hardest thing is knowing that nursing works so easily for some people - and that others work really hard and it eventually works for them. It didn't for us. And to be honest, we're past it. I've been considering this week trying to get her to latch again - and then I see the way she eats even with the bottle and I'm pretty sure that nothing has changed.

So, as much as I've appreciated everyone's advice - this is the direction we're going. I'm able to provide her plenty of milk (and create a huge stock in our freezer - thank God for the deep freezer) and I know she's getting the nutrients she needs.

My goal is to make it to 6 months. And if we go longer, it will be a bonus.

The most gratifying thing: those cheeks and thighs. And the incredibly cute giggle she has decided to bless us with recently! For this, I am proud.

the many faces of AJ

2010-08-24T16:15:00.003-05:00

I have been lax in my posting here - sometimes it's hard to make this a priority. So much has happened - short vacations, Annabelle's baptism, and quitting my job! And the big news - yesterday Annabelle rolled from her tummy to her back 4 times. She has yet to do it again today, but I was so stinkin' proud!

If you have not had the pleasure of meeting our little girl, then you wouldn't know that she is a seriously expressive child. She has been making funny faces since she was born and using her eyebrows to her full advantage. Here are a few pictures that I snapped while she was hanging out with Daddy the other day.

I'll keep her!

bye bye galbladder

2010-07-29T14:27:00.003-05:00

Yesterday I said goodbye to my galbladder. And as my friend John so correctly articulated, I never liked the galbladder much anyway - good riddance!

But once again I'm recovering from surgery. This one is easier, but still not pretty. I have five incisions - one just below my belly button and four across my right set of ribs. So I now have six incision sites on my abdomen - there were zero there before june 20th! :)

Our biggest challenge - breastfeeding. It has never gone smoothly and now, because of the drugs in my system, my little girl has been taking food from a bottle. As of this morning, the drugs have worn off, but my incisions are so sensitive that I can't figure out any holds that would be comfortable enough to keep her away from my incisions - plus Annabelle is a mover... this morning she gave my belly button incision (the biggest and most painful) a nice elbow! That's when I decided I better pump one more day and give her the bottle.

But otherwise, we have a beautiful angel on our hands. Okay, angel is probably strong, but she is an incredibly sweet little girl. And to everyone's surprise when they meet her, she is a smiler. An intentional smiler.

I'm doing my best to keep up with all her changes, but the last 5 1/2 weeks have flown by. She has been in more doctor's offices for me than you would believe, and has never once screamed through an appointment. She is still trying to decide what she thinks about bath time. She loves to be naked on her changing table/dresser and kick and stretch. And Miss Annabelle has so much personality.

Most of all, she is adored by all her family and friends. Everyday she gets something more in the mail and everything has been so thoughtful and generous.

Check out what I mean about the smiles!

what's in a name

2010-07-06T11:10:00.002-05:00

Many people have asked us how we came up with Annabelle Juliette.

Annabelle was a name I had heard before and found it very endearing. Joel and I both felt like it would be a great name for a baby, but also a great name for a woman. That was important to us. We wanted something that was fairly timeless. But I guess only time will truly tell.

Juliette was easy. We debated about using it as a first name, but Annabelle (the name) charmed us early on. Juliette is my maternal Grandmother's first name. As many of you know, my grandmother and I were great friends and she meant (and still means) so much to me in her years, especially the last ones. Though Joel did not have a chance to get to know her well, he knows how influential she was in my life. We hope and pray that our Annabelle inherits her ability to love everyone individually (and many more things). Between my Grandma and Joel's mom, we just might have an artist on our hands, also!

pictures

2010-07-06T11:09:00.001-05:00

For those of you who have too much time on your hands or just love cute babies, I'm attempting to upload Annabelle's pictures to our shutterfly site. This would be all the pictures (most of the good ones are on Facebook already).

www.klullo.shutterfly.com

my "unnatural" natural birth story

2010-06-26T09:18:00.004-05:00

As anyone who has read this blog before knows, we had planned and prepared for an unmedicated birthing experience. We had taken classes, read books, hired a doula, and mentally prepared for the pain I was about to experience.

So, when I woke up on Sunday, June 20th with contractions starting at 5 minutes apart, I called on all my resources. Within 2 hours, our doula was at our house. The funny thing was that I really just wanted to labor alone for the most part. I spent significant time in the bathroom and just tried to think about all that we were going to need for the hospital (interesting side-note, I was not hungry and hadn't eaten much since Friday). Eventually I figured out what was comfortable for me and what I wanted from others and we hung out in the baby's room, rocking in the chair, getting my feet rubbed, and waiting for things to progress. And they did fairly quickly. At noon I decided I was ready to be at the hospital.

We arrived at the hospital by 1 and it was determined I was already at 8-9 cm, which was good because the baby was having small decels after each contraction. Since I was so far along, it was just a waiting game. Within an hour I was at ten, but my water had not broken yet. We decided to push to see if we could get my water to break. After 20 minutes of that and no movement, the doctor decided to break my water, convinced that the baby would then come very quickly. An hour and 40 minutes later, the baby hadn't budged a millimeter and the doctor managed to break the news to me that she wasn't coming vaginally. She was stuck on something and no position we had tried had moved her at all. Even after breaking my water, my contractions slowed and became less painful. We still have no idea what happened.

Within minutes my room was flooded with doctors and nurses and all ability I had to work through my contractions was gone. I wasn't scared, just ready.

After working through another 45 minutes of contractions and relaxing enough to get a spinal, I was strapped down in the OR with Joel standing at my side. Spinals are pretty incredible things as I felt none of the tugging or slicing or anything. Within 10 minutes, our baby girl was being pulled from my womb. They positioned her in a place where I could see her. She didn't cry immediately, but Joel was calm, so it kept me calm. Within minutes she was crying. She was having a few problems breathing, so they explained to me that she was just fine, but they were going to take her to the special nursery (not the NICU). I sent Joel with her so that she could have a familiar voice and presence and I just waited patiently while they finished me back up. The doctors and nursing staff were wonderful and I was back in my room quickly.

Thankfully, Joel and Annabelle Juliette were back with me within minutes and I got to hold my girl immediately.

The stupid cliche of love at first sight has never been more true. She is beautiful and truly a little miracle. We love her with all of our beings and love each other more.

The road to recovery may be a little longer, and clearly the C-section was unexpected and not wanted, but my little burrito is here and making my life more full of love. And modern medicine has created wonderful medication that doesn't harm her and makes mommy able to help raise her child.

After 4 days in the hospital, we are home. There is much more to tell and remember and document including the tale of breastfeeding, but that is for another time. Daddy and Annabelle are watching Saturday morning cartoons and Mommy is desperate to join them!

Shrek feet

2010-06-17T19:49:00.002-05:00

That's what I have. No baby and Shrek feet! We are so anxiously awaiting this baby's arrival. Friday/Saturday is our "due date" and even though it's no exact science, it feels like a deadline (we know it's not, it just feels that way).

Update from our appointment on Tuesday. I'm 4 cm dialated. As a matter of fact, my doc told us to go right to the hospital. (Note to self: next baby, find new doctor). I knew I wasn't contracting, so I asked her to monitor me and then we'd decide. Lo and behold, not contracting (at least not substantially). So, we went home and got ready... bags packed, showered, all excited... nothing. Wednesday, nothing. Thursday, nothing. Why did she have to get us so excited?

So, I gave up and finally went grocery shopping. I kept hoping what we had in the house would hold out until Squirt came, but we were running low on the basics. We're now stocked (another note to self: shopping at 40 weeks pregnant means you come home with 2 different cake mixes and frosting - which is really funny because we never make cake!).

I have a list of to-do's for the weekend so I don't get too stir crazy.

But, tomorrow is my last day of work. I decided that work isn't making me any nicer right now! But as far as what I'll do for the next two weeks (if it goes that long) - no idea! Here's to hoping Squirt joins us soon.

Good thing we have sports to distract right now. Joel loves World Cup soccer and I'm beginning to understand and enjoy it too. And tonight, we'll be watching game 7 of the NBA finals.

I will be watching from the comfort of my fitness/birth ball.

as promised

2010-06-12T12:09:00.003-05:00

Though we're not 100% complete, we're 99%, so I figured it was time.

Here are some before and after pics of the basement. I know I'm impressed! :)

BEFORE

AFTER

38.5

2010-06-09T09:42:00.002-05:00

39 on Friday.
We're ready... actually bored with waiting. Doc says I shouldn't go over my due date, but this is the same woman that told me two weeks ago that we'd have the baby in two weeks! :) Still 2 cm, 75% effaced (making progress there), and baby is really low.
I'm not crazy uncomfortable yet, but I still have to watch what I'm eating. I told Joel that when this baby comes, I will need a Diet Coke from McDonald's pretty quickly! I haven't even sipped one in 10 months.
I need to update pictures of Joel's basement project. It looks beyond awesome! Everyone that sees it is impressed with the craftmanship and the amount of use we know we'll get out of it. Now it just needs to be cleaned up from all of the sawdust and organized. Of course, you think this would keep me busy, but the amount of energy I have to do it is pretty low. Maybe tonight. I can't finish this thought without thanking Mike and Kyle - they were absolute God-sends with all their help.

We have really enjoyed our time lately - we have been on two extended dates and spent quality time with family and friends. People have been so generous and thoughtful and we can't wait to share our little love with everyone!

Hintz shower pics!

2010-06-03T16:30:00.003-05:00

Hintz sisters

With Cynthia

"Great" Grandma Hintz

With Mom

Beautiful children

Generous gifts!

Thanks Liss!

memorial day weekend

2010-06-01T11:04:00.003-05:00

so sweet! we had the most perfect weekend.

Friday night we started the weekend with our friends Becky and Ray. It is a joy to be with them as they are expecting their first later this summer. And we have similar approachs to both labor and parenting. We spent our night talking about vaccines and visits to the doctor. Here is a great picture of Becky and I comparing how we are "carrying". Neither one of us knows what we're having, so we'll see!!

I woke up Saturday with an incredibly long list of things to do and an incredible amount of energy. So, I organized our freezers and refrigerator, pulled weeds, baked bread (5 loaves), grocery shopped, got our bags ready for the hospital, and made meatballs for the freezer. Joel worked in the basement all day - and happily. I will try to update with pictures soon. We then got a chance to see our good friend Kris and his friend Andrea.

Sunday was date day. We slept in, went to the late service at church, had A & W for lunch, miniature golfed in the blistering heat, took a nap, ran to Kohl's, went out for dinner, and then went for a nice walk. We ended the evening just chatting about the coming changes in our life.

Monday morning we woke up very early, which gave Joel another opportunity to work on the basement. My energy level had dwindled (I had been having a few, painless Braxton Hicks contractions), so other than two loads of laundry, I rested for most of the morning with my feet up (catching up on some Glee!). The afternoon was spent with our good friends the Strattons, Ashley and Emily and Maple Reetz. We ate steak and ice cream sundaes! Joel and I ended the evening with putting in the car seat and organizing the basement. Joel still swears he's nesting!

Though we really missed hanging out "up north" with the Hintz's this year, we had a really sweet time!

Hintz shower

2010-05-26T09:38:00.002-05:00

Hopefully soon I will have pictures from our wonderful shower on Saturday (hint, hint Elissa) - so I can show off all the lovely ladies that were there.

But again, our family was generous and wonderful to be with. The food was great! The decorations were all coordinated and perfect! And the company was superb. Baby Hintz could not be more blessed!

docs says "pack your bags"

2010-05-26T09:22:00.002-05:00

So, as many of you know, the time is drawing near. I see my doctor every week now. Everything is always good news. My group B strep test came back negative. I was worried the baby had flipped (nope). My eyelid is twitching (get more sleep). I was suffering from severe heartburn (under control now). Feet are swollen (she just laughs at me). All normal pregnancy stuff.
And to our surprise, we're already 2 cm dialated. Never thought this was a big deal... people walk around dialated for a long time.
But the doctor looked surprised and then said "If you haven't packed your bags yet, I would". She then proceeded to look at Joel and say "And if she tells you she's in pain, take her seriously". She thinks we're going early. As a matter of fact, she thinks we're going to have a baby in the next two weeks! Now, that's only a week and a half early, but still!
To be honest, I'm nervous and anxious and excited all at the same time. Everyone keeps telling me how difficult the first couple of weeks are. Women at work are telling me that my summer won't be as fun as I think it will be. I don't know what to do with a baby. And to be really honest, I'm selfish. I love my time alone with my husband and now I will have to share that. I know - all very normal fears, but still.
On the other hand, I've waited to be a mom for a long time. And for how much I love other people's children, I can guarantee this will be far greater. I look forward to seeing our child, giving Squirt a name, and spending our time together as a family. Life will change, yes... but from what other people say, it is for the better.
So starting Saturday (37 weeks)... we're going to start with all the natural induction methods I can think of: spicy foods, walking, and well, the other thing. And sooner or later, Squirt will be here... and we will wrap up this great gift of God and start a new journey together.

home projects

2010-05-13T10:36:00.002-05:00

Joel is nesting. Or so he says. I think it's just excuse to start a huge home project just 6 weeks before the baby is due. But, since the project will likely benefit me, I let him proceed. :)
The project consists of replacing the basement stairs (done), building cabinets in the basement, and putting in a counter top with a slop sink. The fronts of the cabinets are virtually done, but he still needs to build the "boxes". Then the walls have to be scraped and painted (just where the cabinets are going, due to mold), and then the countertop and sink (which Mike says will not take long at all). We are now about 5 weeks out and I'm getting a little nervous about all of this getting done. Not because it needs to get done, but so that it clears Joel's head for when the baby arrives.
The joy for me is that all of our wonderful wedding gifts will now have a permanent home, we'll have a pantry in the basement, and I will be able to make my piles of clothes on the countertop and not on the floor. It's pretty fantastic to have a carpenter for a husband!

On another note - Joel and our doula, Tiffany, have become fast friends. Their friendship though, is built on debate. Tiffany is a very "natural, holistic" type person. Joel, not so much. Our visit last night consisted of at least 10 minutes of debate about chiropractors. It was very intelligent and respectful, but I can assume the time I'm in labor and we need something to amuse ourselves with (besides the contractions!) - these two will have plenty to talk about.

AND - I had the most fantastic birthday last week. Everyone in my life really made me feel special and honored. Joel treated me like a queen.

nashville

2010-05-07T11:14:00.003-05:00

I know that my life has been consumed by all things baby (including the now restless nights of sleep). But one other thing has managed to get into my conciousness lately.

Nashville. If you haven't spent any time there, the story of the floods may have come and gone for you. The truth is, the town (and a lot of the state of Tennessee) is still under water.

Once upon a time I worked for a photography company based 45 minutes outside of Nashville. They flew me out a couple of times for training - each time, I was able to stay for a few days and visit the city. It was an absolute pleasure. I even had the privilege of staying in the Opryland Hotel and went to a taping of the Grand Ol' Opry. WOW!

The other time I spent a night walking around downtown Nashville - music coming from every doorway and fanastic food. Then I spent a good chunk of time visiting all the historical sites.

I have always sworn that I would take Joel there. He may not be a fan of the current pop country - but he loves the classic country. And with all the live music, I believe my husband would be in heaven.

The last I heard - the Opryland hotel may be all but lost - and the Grand Ol' Opry has 4 feet of water inside. The Country Music Hall of Fame has water in the basement. The Titan's stadium is filled with water. And though it may not be a huge number, 31 people to date have lost their lives.

I still hope to take Joel someday, but I wonder what the city will be like. Some of these great monuments to music (country and otherwise) have been forever changed.

I know a few people in the area - and from their guts and stamina, I know the city will survive, and may even come out of this stronger than ever.

Please don't forget about Nashville right now - keep those people in your prayers.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/in_pictures/8658783.stm

showered

2010-05-02T16:05:00.004-05:00

The Lullo/Carpenter family is all in Chicago. Because of this, Squirt and I have been showered two fold now and this isn't the last of it.

It was perfect! My Aunt Laurie opened her home, prepared food and asked others to help with centerpieces, favors, games and dessert. The house looked great and the company was wonderful. It is always such a treat to be with family.

And man did we come home with a car load. People were beyond generous (again)! Here are a few shots from the day. Man, I feel like I'm getting so big and we still have 7 weeks to go!

Thank you to all who were able to make it out! If anyone has more pictures, I'd love to have them!

quickly

2010-04-20T07:12:00.003-05:00

Sometimes squirmy babies wake you up early... so here is an update.

Doc appointment yesterday was great! The baby was totally settled on to my left side of my stomach - the minute I lifted up my shirt (to hear the heartbeat) the doctor said "well, I guess this baby likes to lay on your left side". She then showed me exactly where the baby's back and head was (down). Now we just pray the baby's head stays down! :) The heartbeat was 150 and I'm healthy too. I now have visits every two weeks!

Other updates: I prepped cloth (prefold) diapers this weekend. Check out the transformation:

Before........................... and after (nice and fluffy and ready to absorb!)

And Joel has accomplished the ultimate task. And of course, the pictures do it NO justice, but I had to try. Guess you'll just have to come over and see our beautiful cradle!

one more thought

2010-04-12T12:47:00.003-05:00

Joel and I were laughing so hard last night. We were laying in bed and this child must have been having a really hard time getting comfortable - we could see some body part just sticking up for long periods of times and then "thud" we'd see a HUGE kick. We have seen the belly move before - but last night it was truly a scene from a horror flick - except cute :) Joel would cover my belly up, but I was so intrigued, I had to keep watching!

friend shower

2010-04-12T09:33:00.003-05:00

Cute baby cards! :) Me, Ashley, and my belly glory.

Creating unique onesies for the baby

We are so blessed to be surrounded by so many loving people! Our cloth diaper stash has been added to and many more needs have been filled - plus Squirt got a few books that Mommy is very excited about! Daddy already read one (Barnyard Dance) to Squirt on Sunday morning.

This pic is an added bonus - just another little something for the baby... elefante for the room!

More pics from this and Easter on my shutterfly site: http://klullo.shutterfly.com.

squirmy worm

2010-04-09T11:08:00.002-05:00

For some reason, that is what I call this baby some days - other days this baby is a boxer. Somtimes Squirt just squirms around trying to get comfortable - other days I picture Squirt sucking his/her thumb and then pulling it out so it whacks my belly. I love feeling the movement, but there are days and nights when I could deal with more of the squirming and less of the kicking/punching.

I got quite a few responses from my last blog - so here's the update. The twitching is probably just development of the nervous system or hiccups - doc was not concerned.

We interviewed our first doula on Wednesday and really liked her. From emails she was #2 on my list, but I feel great knowing that if we don't like #1, #2 will be awesome. She really listened to us and had no problems answering all of Joel's questions (which I was surprised how many he had). One of the things I love about Joel is that the basic answer is not enough for him - he wants to know why and what has happened historically. Where did the concept of doula come from? Was it Greek or French or Spanish? Things I would never even have thought of. He felt very comfortable with her and that was as important to me as me being comfortable.

Birth class is fun and interesting. Lots of big bellys and waddling around (not me yet, thankfully). We watched our first births last night (short clips) and I cried when the baby came out - I'm crossing my fingers that only Joel noticed. Of course, watching these women labor put the fear of God in me - which is probably not a bad thing. A little reality check - now I know the challenges set before me and this idea of natural birth. But I am determined and am educating myself as much as possible.

My pregnant community is so fun - my cousin is 4 weeks before me and in nesting mode, a friend of mine at work is a few days before me, another friend is a few months behind - it's great to be surrounded by all the support and encouragement! Can't wait to meet all of our babies!

too much information

2010-03-29T16:17:00.003-05:00

The internet is good and evil all at the same time. I love being able to find information that calms my fears, but most often, I find information that tells me something is very, terribly wrong. As a first time mother, it's much easier to believe the latter.
Case in point. Lately the baby has been twitching - the only way to explain is that it feels like a muscle spasm or seizure. Hadn't thought much of it before today but decided to "google" it. I found everything from it's normal development all the way to it is truly a seizure and my baby will have seizures when it is delivered. Great. With a doctor's appointment coming up tomorrow, I'm deciding to believe that all is well and it is normal.
Another struggle I've been having is the desire to have a natural childbirth experience (as long as Squirt is healthy and allows it). Problem is that our insurance company would not foot the bill (though it would likely be a much smaller bill). We are stuck with an OB in a hospital. With this being the case, I started to do more research on how to make this experience as ideal as possible. The final answer for us is to hire a doula. Check this out for information about a doula: http://www.dona.org/
My favorite information I read is this:

Numerous clinical studies have found that a doula's presence at birth tends to result in shorter labors with fewer complications:
-reduces negative feelings about one's childbirth experience
-reduces the need for pitocin (a labor-inducing drug), forceps or vacuum extraction and cesareans
-reduces the mother's request for pain medication and/or epidurals

We have meetings set up with two different women from the area who are doula's. I will let you know what we find out!

progress

2010-03-17T17:30:00.002-05:00

Wool longies - check, bigger soaker - check, blanket - check (the two little legs at the top of the pic will be a stuffed elephant!)

Starting to grow a little... (okay, forgive the no makeup... but I like the belly!)

Getting ready to paint Squirt's room... (to which I better get back or Joel will think I abandoned him!)

Grandpa turns 80?!

2010-03-17T17:18:00.004-05:00

Eating, eating and more eating

The birthday kids trying to decide who's older (Grandpa, you're the winner!)

Checking out wonderful old pictures

And where else would kids want to be but in the indoor pool! The house was really amazing. As a matter of fact, the whole day was pretty splendid. Aunt Linda was in town (which is always a treat)... Sara and Bill brought the kids... Uncle Dan and Cari brought their two little friends... and Grandpa was the the center of attention. What a gift to celebrate so many healthy and happy years!

We also got an unexpected treat. Turns out that the house we were at was a virtual gallery for my Grandma's work. Some of which many of us had not seen before. You could feel that she was being honored and virtually present. The sting of missing her never quite goes away. My little growing family has never had the blessing of knowing her. I can't wait to tell stories and show pictures!

march = big plans

2010-03-10T15:32:00.002-06:00

As I near the end of my second trimester, we've started to think about all the "things" we need to get done and how best to use our time. So in the next several weeks we'll be painting Squirt's room, ordering a dresser, Joel wants to finish up the crib, I'd like to finish the blanket, and get the room a little more set up. Then the showers start and before we know it, our little baby will be in our arms!
Until then, Squirt has taken up residence on my right side (at least today). I've started to feel some jabs up closer to my ribs, while at the same time getting kicked down lower. Still feeling great and energetic. I have been trying to stay somewhat active while I can.
I'd also like to start making freezer meals at some point before the baby gets here. If anyone has any good ones, please send my way!
I will try to update this weekend about the wonderful party for Grandpa and a few other baby things.
26 weeks Friday!

24 week doctor's appointment

2010-03-03T13:06:00.002-06:00

Heartbeat - 140. Squirt kicked the doppler :)
Glucose test at the next appointment - boo. Let's hope that goes well.
Everything else looks great - measuring right on target!

Chicago this weekend to celebrate my Grandpa's 80th birthday!! Still looking great!

belly dancing

2010-03-01T15:28:00.002-06:00

Lunch is a great time for Squirt and I. Usually I'm relaxed (not working) and enjoying a lovely meal, finished off with some sort of sweet.
Then I wait.
Within a few minutes, Squirt is up and moving. Fun to feel from both the inside and now the outside. But today was different. The kicks are becoming progressively stronger - and today, strong enough to see!! Wow- weird and awesome all at the same time. Couldn't see anything distinct, just my belly moving.
Now if Squirt could please put on a good show this weekend for my family, that would be great!

performance

2010-02-23T15:42:00.003-06:00

Squirt performed last night.
Pizza, root beer and brownies. Excited high school friends. A perfect time for stage fright. But one by one each of the girls got to feel movement - unmistakable kicks right in their waiting hands. I don't think I've felt the kicks that hard before. But there was no denying what they were feeling. And the look of joy and privilege each one had was irreplaceable.
But the privilege was entirely mine. The life growing inside of me will be our responsibility and no doubt we will receive the most joy, but we can't wait to share Squirt with the world. And allow Squirt to be loved by so many different people with so many different gifts.
My prayer is that we won't be selfish with this child, though I know with all my heart that it will be a challenge for me. I will want to stay in and snuggle and shelter - and there will be time and need for that. But allowing Squirt to be loved and challenged and nurtured by so many people - that is a gift not only for us, but for our child.
Squirt will be exposed to hunting and fishing, weight-lifting and cooking, baseball and musicals, Packers and Bears, conservative and liberal - and though all will fight for their side adamantly, all will express deep joy and love no matter what. And at the end of the day - home will be a place to sort it all out.
Thank you, ahead of time, to each of you that will enrich our child's life. I can't wait for our child to enrich ours and all of yours, as well.

lots happening

2010-02-17T19:25:00.012-06:00

I will give you little words, lots of pics.

1 - I'm growing. The picture on the left was two weeks ago. The one on the right, tonight (I will be 23 weeks on Friday). Feeling great - though a little tired at times.

2 - Joel and I spent the weekend in Madison and had the most unbelievable view from our hotel room!

3- Our crib arrived and Joel surprised me while I was at Young Life on Monday night and put it together.

4 & 5 - One finished project (a wool soaker) and one unfinished blanket for Squirt.

the moment

2010-02-11T15:16:00.002-06:00

People keep asking us why. Why don't we want to find out what we're having? Boy or girl? How do you feel connected? How do you paint the room? How do you look forward?
Because of the moment. Labor isn't going to be fun. But the moment will be true joy.
When Joel gets to look at me and say "It's a ..." - my eyes fill with tears just thinking about it. And then, when he gets to announce to our waiting family "It's a ..." - that moment will be forever etched in my mind.
We weren't tempted, truly didn't even think about it at the ultrasound. We were amazed. There's a baby in there. Really. With fingers and toes and kidneys and bones. My thoughts never went there.
And feeling connected. Once I saw that baby, there was no going back. I'm in love. And I can't wait to meet that little personality growing inside of me.
The room, planning - those don't matter to us. We want gender neutral anyway.
So for us - it's became a no brainer. The joy and excitement will get us through the next 18 weeks and the moment will be the sweetest thing I've ever known.
Joel and I have created life. What a miracle.

peek-a-boo

2010-02-02T21:35:00.003-06:00

Well, I'm not going to lie. Ultrasounds are pretty sweet - okay, really sweet. And the best news of all, Squirt is healthy and growing right on track. Our due date is somewhere in the 6/18 - 6/20 range. We have some images of our little one that I couldn't be prouder to share. And of course, Baby Hintz has got to be the cutest little thing there ever was!
Could be the only moment Squirt stayed still... this baby was jammin'!

Kickin' so hard... bop, right in the head.

And all snuggled in... the tech said that Squirt was balled up most of the time with hands near the face.

We did hold tight to our word and we didn't find out the sex of our baby. My dad has already threatened to call the doctor's office himself, to which I had to tell him the doctor doesn't even know! :) We are just so blessed that everyone is healthy.

january weekend

2010-01-25T19:11:00.004-06:00

i only have a moment, but i'm a proud wife! joel is building a cradle for Squirt and it's starting to take shape. check this out!

on another note - we got to use our Christmas gift from Mike this weekend - a trip to a Badgers hockey game in Madison. we brought our friends Lou and Jessica who had never been to a hockey game. great company, great game - Badgers hold on for the win over Denver!

bumps

2010-01-21T09:58:00.002-06:00

Week 18 day 5. In a week and a half... this happened. I know I seem surprised every time, but it literally happened in the eight hours I was at work. Even Joel was surprised when I got home!
Squirt and I are well. I really can't complain. Everyone at work keeps asking me "how are you feeling?" (which is very nice), but I can't say I have much to respond with... all is well.
Last night, we had a funny moment. I haven't been feeling the baby move a ton, but when we were relaxing on the couch, I felt a little, so I had Joel put his hand on my belly. We were enthralled in some t.v. show and suddenly Joel pulled his hand away and screamed like he'd seen a ghost. I had felt nothing, but Joel swears he felt a tapping on his hand. Guess it scared him... he scared me! Squirt just wanted a little contact!
Everything else is great. We are doing everything we can to enjoy our time together and with friends. We were blessed with two great meals and great company last week, as well as a nice date night out on Saturday. This weekend we're heading to a Rockets/Terrors basketball game and a Madison hockey game.

life full

2010-01-11T18:49:00.004-06:00

Just when we think things might slow down after the holidays, we reconnect with friends and we're off again! We assumed we'd have this weekend at home to do some organization and redecorating, but then we were invited to different fun events and we couldn't resist.

First was the Badger/Boilermaker basketball game in Madison on Saturday. Great game - Badgers beat the undefeated Purdue Boilermakers. Fun was had by all.

Second was a playoff party at Kris's house - great food, exciting game, painful loss. Before our trip to church on Sunday (and the ensuing football game) - we took this pic (17 weeks).

But before we could do all of that, we needed to squeeze in just a bit of organization. Every closet in the house was being used - and being used to it's maximum capacity. Not anymore! Squirt now has a closet and Joel and I have combined forces and made space for each other. Here's Joel collecting up things to go to Goodwill!

And a little treat I bought for Squirt...

happenings

2010-01-06T08:58:00.002-06:00

The last week has brought us many blessings!

1 - Christmas with the Lullo's. We took off on Wednesday night (the 30th) and arrived to a fire in the fireplace and warm bed to sleep in. Thursday we shared our gifts and were blessed with many in return (including a few for Squirt). We celebrated NYE in style with a huge steak and a lot of laughs around a few fun games. Friday we relaxed, saw my Grandma, ATE, and watched football (it was fantastic). Saturday we caught up with some of my old friends from college, and their sweet children, and Saturday night we saw my cousins. Sunday a.m. we packed up and headed out. We always LOVE our time in Chicago and feel so relaxed that we don't want to head back to reality.

2 - Monday night we were laying on the couch, while my sweet husband rubbed my back. I had been feeling a lot of little flutters during the day, but when I layed on my belly, they were more distinct. So I had Joel put his hand on the spot I had been feeling it. And low and behold - Squirt gave Joel a little tickle. It was the sweetest moment!

3 - 16 week appointment. Squirt is stubborn (as if we should expect anything different), but eventually we got to hear our little one's heartbeat (doc says it's about 145). People are starting to make some guesses as to what the sex of Baby Hintz could be. Mom L says girl, Joel says girl, Dad L says boy, doc says boy - me, no idea. Just glad to know our Squirt is still growing and changing (as is everyone else).

Hope you had a wonderful and peaceful New Year's celebration.

Christmas with the Hintz's

2009-12-27T09:13:00.004-06:00

This year, I began a new step in my life. I have managed to make it 29 years of Christmas with my family. Last year, Joel and I ran around to make it to all of our Christmas celebrations. This year, all of Joel's siblings were in town for a short while and we wanted to be sure to have plenty of time with them. So, year 30 was spent in Appleton, WI with the Hintz family. And they like to celebrate!

Christmas Eve was spent going to church with the entire extended family and then to my father in law's house for appetizers and gift exchanges. I was able to experience this with them last year, and it is amazing how the children are growing and how they multiply :) Next Christmas there will be at least two more!

The Hintz love their traditions. One of them is that many years ago, Grandma Hintz made her first mink bowtie - and ever since, the men wear them to church every Christmas Eve. The church expects it, and love that even the smallest Hintz wears one!

Though the roads were slick, Joel and I drove home to celebrate our one and only Christmas as a couple. We slept in a little and then had the joy of hot cocoa and donuts while we opened our gifts. Joel was generous and thoughtful in his gift giving - by far the most wonderful was the Pandora bracelet he bought me to celebrate the birth of our first child. What a beautiful moment!

We then drove back to Mike's house (in our comfy clothes) to celebrate with the siblings and spend all day talking and playing games. It was a relaxing and joyful time. Wonderful to have everyone in the same room. We ended the night at Cynthia's house to enjoy the gift Elissa gave her (Harry Potter Blu-ray)!

Baby Hintz is one lucky little kid. They will be surrounded by love and support - by different perspectives, different personalities, and people who are overjoyed by the arrival of this small life. Joel and I feel blessed. So blessed.

changes and growth

2009-12-22T07:17:00.006-06:00

The Hintz's bit the bullet and finally replaced my beloved Malibu - but luckily we're replacing it with something very similar - an Impala! We picked it up yesterday.

And then there is this. I'm not sure if I'm excited or embarassed. This outfit has no support, so the truth is showing. Not sure if it's the 4.4 pounds I've put on (to be exact) or the baby - but let's hope it's baby! :) Much cuter in the pic than in real life.

pregnancy funnies

2009-12-16T16:12:00.003-06:00

1 - I had no idea that pregnancy caused acne like I'm a 12 year old boy.

2 - My skin itches like crazy!

3 - I have had my fair share of "pregnancy brain". Example from this morning: Trying to quickly clean up the kitchen before I scoot out the door for work. Grab the credit card bill and a recipe. Put credit card bill in the cabinet with the recipes and the recipe on the stairs with the bills. Then stood in the front hallway knowing that wasn't right, but not sure why. I then looked in the garbage thinking I had thrown the bill away, to FINALLY realize that I had just swapped places. Geez! I heard somewhere the brain never fully recovers.

4 - I have a new step to my morning ritual - my beloved neti-pot. It's a gross thought, but it's a wonderful device that insures that I don't have excruciating sinus headaches all day.

5 - The hormone crazies have remained relatively intact (in my humble opinion), except yesterday morning. Joel finished the chili, which he had no reason not to do. But in my head, I had planned to serve that for dinner last night. I didn't go on a rampage, I didn't "make him pay", but I did have to lay in bed and remind myself that it wasn't really that big of a deal. At all. No really. Just make something else. Instead, Joel got a frozen pizza and tater tots. My little brain couldn't think up anything better. Don't worry, he get's chicken taco soup tonight!

But on the other hand, most of the other stories I have heard women tell, I have been blessed enough NOT to experience. I sleep through most of the night (may need to get up once to pee). I don't have to go to the bathroom all the time. I do enjoy my food, but haven't experienced a lot of cravings (my drug of choice is cheeseburgers and I've only given in a few times). I miss wine, but it's not torture.

14 weeks on Friday! Christmas 10 days away! Chicago in 16!

2nd appointment

2009-12-08T17:13:00.002-06:00

All is well! Baby Hintz was enjoying itself so much that we couldn't actually hear the heartbeat with the doppler, so they brought in an old sonogram machine (free, hurray!) and we got to SEE the heartbeat and the amazing gymnastics our little one was doing. Arms and legs were all over the place and doing all kinds of flips.

12 weeks down!

PS- Estimated due date: June 18th!

blog announcement

2009-12-01T12:20:00.005-06:00

How to make the announcement - well, first tell parents, they are the most excited. Then siblings, also quite excited. Close friends, who you don't want to hear from someone else. Extended family, who surprise you in how excited they are. Then the cyber-world announcement.

The blog seems the right place to start, since people I really care about check here. Then facebook - though that seems so akward.

But the truth is, we're having a baby. And we're excited. Okay, ecstatic and overwhelmed are probably better words. In almost 7 months, two will become three. The house will go from welcome and warming (and very adult), to chaotic and childlike (but hopefully still welcoming).

So, then, the story. Most of your have heard this - some have not. It was no secret that Joel and I had planned on waiting a year to start trying for a family, and with our trip to Italy at the one year mark, no one would have been surprised had we conceived in Italy. As one year crept closer and closer, I would say we got, um, lazy.

My period was due to arrive several days before our trip to Italy - when it hadn't arrived by the night before we left, neither one of us was surprised. The last several months had been inconsistent. So I dutifully had packed every pad and tampon in my suitcase with many at easy access (for the plane).

The night before we left, we decided it would be better to know for sure we weren't pregnant than wonder the whole time we were gone. We had a pregnancy test in the house, so I told Joel I'd wake up in the morning and take it and then we could go on our merry way. With the trip looming, I didn't sleep well and woke up early the next morning. Seeing as I had to go to the bathroom immediately when I woke up, I decided I better pee on the stick at the same time. So I did. I set it down gingerly and walked back into the bedroom.

It was early and dark, but I knew I couldn't look at the test alone. So I sat down on the bed and tapped Joel. "Honey, I peed on the stick". He sat straight up. "You peed in the bed?!"

See, Joel sleeps pretty hard and sometimes has a hard time hearing. This would have been one of those times. I almost fell off the bed in laughter while I clarified my words to him. So we sat for a few minutes, waiting.

Assuming it was going to be negative (truly), we walked into the bathroom together, Joel first. He glanced at it, but had no idea what he was looking at. I looked over at the test and immediately burst into tears. I pulled the directions out of the garbage to be sure I knew what I was looking at. Yep, positive. How quickly life changes.

We stood in the bathroom laughing and crying for awhile before we realized we had an airplane in Chicago to catch. I dutifully unpacked all my previously packed "girl stuff". We bought another test on the way to the airport, just in case. I called the nurse (who we happened to both know) and then did our best not to tell my dad, who took us to the airport.

The other test was unnecessary. I took it in Rome one day, just to check. Before I could even put the test down - 2 lines. No doubt lady, you are pregnant.

4 weeks later we got to see our little lima bean, heartbeat and all. What a joy! Our lima bean is now the size of a lime and happily growing and changing every day. Tomorrow we get to go back and hear the heartbeat again. It will be a relief to me as I've spent the last 3 weeks worrying that something, unknowingly, is wrong. I'll try to remember to update with the results tomorrow!

holiday joy

2009-11-24T16:13:00.003-06:00

the anticipation for the holidays this year seems stronger than ever. maybe it's because, now that i'm married, we just can't get to chicago as much.

everyone at work keeps asking "what are you excited to eat"? i love it all - especially the stuffing, but nothing as much as my mom's gnocchi. see, even though she's not italian - she's stuck with a bunch of italians around her and it's only right that on thanksgiving, we celebrate it all.

joel is sure he hit the jackpot! gnocchi, bread, salad (with grandma's salad dressing), stuffing, potatoes, turkey, apple pie, and other lovely treats we don't even know about yet.

but being the sap that i am, the best part is family. for me it is the chance to be with my family for an extended period of time, to help my mom be the hostess with the mostess (though she by no means needs my help), and the opportunity for joel to get to know all of them better and better.

to me the question is "what are you blessings this year?" without question, i have too many to even begin to describe - and it's something i hope i never lose sight of. i have a husband i can't believe is walking this life with me. i have parents who i trust and love and enjoy. i have siblings who continue to do great things and be great people. i have in laws that are fun and loving and have always made me feel welcome. i have a job. i have a cozy and welcoming home. i have the most incredible friends than i have ever had in my life.

this just reminds me that these are not only blessings to me, but reasons for me to continue to focus outward, on others needs. mine are fulfilled. so many others don't have the things i do.

my prayer this season is that God would give me eyes to see - to see the beauty and the pain in other's lives - and not only to see, but to act. it's a tall order, but i know this prayer will not go unanswered.

a few snaps

2009-11-03T06:26:00.003-06:00

In front of the Pantheon

Being blessed by the Pope

Cinque Terre from our apartment

Florence

The path to our apartment in Florence

FOUND IT :)

2009-11-02T15:05:00.002-06:00

So, I just posted this to the wrong blog... hilarious!! This is the blog I posted from Rome...

pantheon steps
15 minutes. I just excused Joel to go for a walk while I use the next 15 minutes to give you a quick update (we just checked football scores, so he is satisfied).

Obviously if I told you everything we had been up to, you would never finish reading. I can tell you that we have done so much that we were supposed to go to Pompeii today and felt that we couldn't appreciate it. We have seen so much art, so many churches, and many piles of ruins. We decided over one of our best dinners last night (pasta fagoil and rigatoni carbonara sitting outside in a piazza we stumbled upon), that it was time to relax. So today, we're just walking - reminding ourselves that not everyone walks past the Pantheon everyday. There is a part of Rome we haven't explored yet, so we plan to stroll in that direction, but we're going to attempt to leave our map in our bag and just see what we see.

As for the last week - it has been everything we could have hoped for. The concert was great (we were practically sitting on top of the violinist), Cinque Terre was BEAUTIFUL (though it rained the whole time so we only could hike the Via del Amorè), and Rome has charmed Joel in a way that neither of our first places could quite do. I am surprised, but glad.

We have learned to slow down in Rome. We took Florence at a dizzying speed. With so much time in Rome - we have strolled and eaten (gelato, espresso, pasta, pasta, pasta). Joel has discovered that he absolutely loves espresso - I love gelato (as if that was even a question).

And on Sunday - we became quite blessed. We were in the Castel Snt. Angelo. From the top, you can see St. Peter's Square and we noticed chairs set up - so we wandered down. We could see a mass going on inside St. Peter's Basilica and that the pope was inside (it was a mass for Africa, so there was cool music that they were pumping into the square and showing on huge screens). We decided to get in line to go inside (assuming it would be after the mass was over). In front of us, people started to b-line for the chairs set up in front of a golden chair - Joel leaned over to the English speaking girls to our left and found out that the pope was coming out after the mass. So we sat patiently to see African priests, cardinals, and lastly, the Swiss guard parade out before the Pope came out, spoke about reconciliation in Africa and then blessed us all in multiple different languages - including English. It was a pretty cool experience.

1 minute. Gotta go! We'll be home soon!

lost blog post

2009-10-30T04:41:00.003-05:00

It's 4:42 a.m. CST and we're home - and of course, awake. We stayed in bed as long as we could and then decided to just get up and get unpacked.

Last night, when we saw my parents, they told us they only saw the one blog post from Florence, which is funny because we only posted one more, but it should have been there. So, my post from the steps of the Pantheon is forever lost. Oh well.

I really wish we could have updated the blog more, but finding an internet cafe wasn't as easy as I had hoped and most of the time, we were just too busy.

I am not yet able to process that we are gone and back already, so instead of sharing stories (of which there are many) - this morning I will leave you with a picture. I haven't downloaded them yet, so I am just going to plug in my camera and we'll see what we get.

This was our last night in Rome. We were attempting to take a picture of us in front of the Pantheon, and this clown performer wanted to join us! Ciao, Roma!

firenze!

2009-10-19T05:00:00.002-05:00

Ciao!!

We are to the last day of our adventure in Florence... and it has been quite an adventure. In three days we have done it all - Michelangelo, Donatello, Chianti, espresso, coacolatè, bucatini, ravioli, bruschetta. It has been other worldly. You can't imagine life where every turn of the street introduces you to more masterpieces. Joel keeps wondering why the Catholic church in America can't have some of these pieces. We have walked what feels like 200 miles. This has required us to take long naps in the afternoon before we eat more.

Katie's favorites - Donatello's Mary Magadelene, Botecelli's Primavera, the asparagus Ravioli she had for dinner last night. Joel's favorites - panini's, the Uffizi, the Michelangelo room at the Bargello, espresso, Bucatini alla amartino, and grappa.

Tonight might be a memory we keep forever. We purchased tickets to a trio of violin, cello, and pianoforte in the Michelangelo room at the Bargello. We plan to eat a fabulous meal (at a restaurant recommended to us) and stroll past the lit statues in the Palazzo Vecchio - then partake in some night music.

The timer is counting down at our internet cafe - and Joel is antsy for some churches (Santa Croce and Santa Maria del Fiore)... and of course, food. Katie is hoping for another encounter with some gelato between the churches!

Tomorrow, we're off to the Italian Riviera! Arrivadercì!

luggage

2009-10-14T09:05:00.002-05:00

Two, small, rolling suitcases, a BIG backpack (think hiking), and a small backpack - we did it, folks!

Tonight is cleaning out the fridge, charging our ipods, and attempting to sleep even though I feel like a little kid going to Disneyland in the morning - good luck!

two more days of work... will I make it??

2009-10-13T09:02:00.002-05:00

In reality, I will. But in theory, I feel like it is just wasted time and energy when I could be doing my last minute planning and packing.

Joel is working tonight - my plan: to unpack all the bags we packed on Sunday and repack them. I know, it sounds ridiculous, but in reality, I think we'll be happy I did it. We didn't pack very strategically and I think if I can pack us better, we won't be pulling everything out of our suitcases all the time, but we shall see.

We are making several assumptions (I know, you should never do that). One is that the apartments will have towels for showering with. We don't have room for heavy, bulky towels. Two is that we will make the time to clean clothes - we really slimmed down and definitely don't have enough to make it the full two weeks. Three - our imagined style is the same as the style that is in Italy.

For example - I am doing something I've never done before - I am dressing cute for our plane ride. Now, usually I could care less what I look like when all I am going to do is try to force myself to sleep at a ridiculous time of day. But I am actually starting to take pride in my body and feel that I can both be comfortable and cute. So, the outfit that won the test? Short, black, cotton dress, leggings, flat boots, jacket and scarf. I think because the dress is loose fitting and the leggings are comfy, the outfit should work. The truth is, no matter how hard I try, sleeping at 5 p.m. our time is going to be a challenge.

A few last details that can't even be accomplished until we get there - train tickets, tickets for the museums in Florence, tickets for a possible opera performance, and tickets to a AS Roma game. Hopefully the first three will be accomplished by Friday night and then completely put out of my mind! Then we'll eat and walk and absorb and enjoy and drink and...

google walking maps?!

2009-10-01T13:37:00.002-05:00

A few updates
- Applied for a new credit card that DOESN'T charge me an extra 3% on international purchases
- Ordered Euro and they came in yesterday
- Put a hold on our mail starting in TWO WEEKS FROM TODAY!
- Started to make notes in my notebook about the location, phone number, and money owed for each of our apartments

The big accomplishment of the day was using google maps to get a walking map from the train station to each of our apartments. Each of them is about 1.5 miles away, but that is a good healthy walk after sitting on the train all day. The coolest thing is that each route comes with pictures - so on our walk from the train station in Florence, we will walk past the Duomo, the original location of the David, the Uffizi museum, and the Arno.

Getting less nervous and more excited. We now have all the clothes and shoes we need, my friend Ashley gave us a big backpack to pack in, and we can now focus the weekend on our anniversary. Happy one year to us!

Plans to celebrate? Joel is making breakfast on Saturday, then maybe apple picking, then very nice dinner downtown. Sunday I'm making breakfast, church, and then watching the video of our wedding. Hurray!

exchange rates and exchanging money

2009-09-28T10:38:00.002-05:00

So, even though the travel business is down, they are still screwing us at every turn with our money. We are finding that things in travel are changing - it used to be that the best thing to do when making a purchase in a foreign country, was to use your credit card. We were just informed that our credit card company charges 3% for each purchase made in a foreign country! Same with our ATM card. Awesome.

And to exchange currency here, they charge you for that too (on top of the terrible rate the dollar is getting right now). I'm so frustrated and there doesn't seem to be a good way around any of it. Waiting until we get there (like we used to) seems to not be the best answer any more.

This is not my favorite part of trip planning.

I'm going to the bank on my lunch to learn about 2 things - wire transfer (to pay for our apartment in Rome) and exchange rates for our bank.

Another note - even though I told our credit card company that we'll be in Italy for certain dates, they told us it's very possible they'll put a hold on our account in case of suspicious activity. Something else to look forward to. Good thing we have good friends who have lent us their international cell phone. Looks like we're going to need it.

I can't wait to be on that airplane and done with the planning.

a picture's worth a thousand words

2009-09-18T12:51:00.006-05:00

Chocolate covered bacon at the Wisconsin State Fair!

Been waiting 15 years for this moment!

Company picnic at the TimberRattlers game

In the Redwoods

Labor day joy!

so many words...

2009-09-14T13:18:00.003-05:00

Things have been crazy good for us lately. Really fun summer - great family adventures - great friendships and conversations - and plenty to look forward to. With all of that, I have had a hard time narrowing down what to blog about - and then end up not blogging at all.
So here is the run down - I joined a gym (which, for the first time in my life, I'm loving). Joel is working at Fastenal part-time to get the lay of the land, while still applying for other work. I spent Labor Day weekend in Chicago while Joel celebrated Eric's birthday in California. I got a much-anticipated promotion at work. Joel helped our friend's, the Strattons, build the most amazing treehouse - seriously. I finally applied for my teaching license in Wisconsin, which is no easy feat.

Those are the highlights - here are some details of the slough of blessings being passed in our direction:

- Joel celebrated his 29th birthday on Wed. surrounded by old friends, goods drinks, and a pretty good dinner. Saturday we put his new grill together, and tonight we will break it in with Joel's favorite, Italian Sausage.

- The other night I received an email that I have been selected to be a "community reviewer" for the Performing Arts Center in Appleton. This means that I will (with another person) get to attend a handful of shows this season, and review them online. If you know me, you will know that this is about as good as it gets in my book. I LOVE THEATRE.

- Joel and I received a phone call from a friend of mine from work on Saturday offering us tickets to the Packer/Bear game at Lambeau Field at face value for Sunday night's game. Though the Bears did not look good - we had a great time! Warning to Bear's fans - bring a friend.

- ITALY! We are now at 31 days and I couldn't be happier, more excited, anxious, and ready. We have wonderful and generous friends who have lent us many travel books, converters, backpacks, man-bags, etc. Now we just wait, and wait, and wait.

As for everything else, we are just flat out blessed. Though lost in our search for church, we are not alone. Many of our good friends are just as lost. So we are attempting to band together. At least pray for one another. No matter how frustrated I can be at the church, it never makes me want to run from God. He is definitely not the issue, though not being in community really challenges my ability to think of Him first. We sat with friends this weekend and shared life and prayed and it was very lifting.

And 10/4 is just weeks away - happy one year to us. Marriage is what you make of it. We have had our fair share of challenges, a few tears, and many moments of compromise, but we have come out stronger, and if I may say so, more in love than we both thought we could ever be. I didn't know a year ago that I was marrying my best friend, but now I truly know that I did.

meeting with the pastor

2009-08-17T13:54:00.003-05:00

Joel and I, though not entirely willingly, have kinda-sorta decided that we need to find a church. In the process of looking, we kinda-sorta have found one. Joel is very happy and ready to settle in.

Me, not so much.

It's not that it's not a great church - we already know a good chunk of people there. It's not that I don't love their mission. It's just that I'm not totally sold on the whole idea of a traditional "church". I believe in the "C"hurch with my whole heart. I believe in the Kingdom of God with everything in me. I believe that I'm called to live both of those things out.

I'm just totally unsure of the way we do it in our current American culture.

But the problem is, I don't have a better answer. I know that both Joel and I are encouraged to love more when we go to this place called church. I know that I'm forced to reflect on my image of God when I'm with other people.

But I have questions - lots of them. And often times at traditional churches, they only seem to have answers - and I don't feel like my questions are satisfied by those answers.

I won't tell you what was being talked about at church yesterday, but it was a hard topic. But, as most pastors would do, ours broke it down into very simple terms. After he was finished, the girl in front of me took a big deep breath, and did a fist pump while she mumbled to her neighbor "YES". I think she meant that she felt satisfied - that this question that had bothered her was finally answered.

I did not have the same wave of relief, and I definitely did no fist pumping.

See, my problem is that I don't think we are meant to have the answers - at least not all of them. I didn't agree with the answers that were given, but I didn't have better ones. I think we, as Christians, HATE being uncomfortable. We do everything in our power to make sense of things that don't make sense. We want to be able to hold it in our hands, in our minds, and in our hearts, so that if someone asks us a question, we have a quick and swift response.

I'm uncomfortable with this.

And I'm okay with that.

But the pastor, who we are having coffee with today, might not be. We'll see if I even have the guts to lay it out there.

inspiring words

2009-08-04T09:01:00.008-05:00

I used to be inspired more. Maybe it was working with teenagers or children - they see things that we (adults) tends to miss. Maybe it was reading more - Twilight is fun, but not necessarily inspiring. Maybe it was being outside of the 3 1/2 walls of my cubicle. Walking with people, talking with people. Sitting in coffee shops watching the world turn. Sitting in parks watching children play. Making your life work about the act of inspiring people.

I like what I do. I like working for Disney. And having a regular schedule is what is important to me. So, this is where I will stay.

But recently I have re-connected (through Facebook and Twitter) with some of the people I worked with in the act of inspiring teenagers. They all inspire me to remember that the world is bigger - and that thinking about it, and God's hand all over it, is part of what makes my heart pump. It makes me want to soak up words and stories again.

But my favorite inspiration lately is my family. Managing two families has been an adjustment to me, and has meant that we haven't seen everyone as much as we'd like. This last weekend we were able to get down to Chicago - my siblings both there - and spend some quality time.

This quality time involved baseball and reunions.

Now, some people may not agree with me, but there is something about getting to go to a baseball stadium and see your favorite team play. And it's better when your favorite team (mine being the White Sox) - demolish the New York Yankees. I believe this may have been the best game I've been to in a long time at "The Cell" (which I recently learned is what people call good ol' Comiskey Park). 14 - 4 White Sox. No homeruns, but lots and lots of hitting. And I even got to see Bobby Jenks (my fave) come trotting out on the field.

But, better than that, my family was all around me, smiling and laughing and joking with each other. Sharing a few drinks. Eating a few dogs and polishes. Standing and clapping. Making memories. The feeling of excitement that comes when "Thunderstruck" starts playing and the players run out on the field. Watching my Dad and the memories that brings for him.

And then there was the Carpenter Family Reunion. Now, most people have a weird negative connotation with "family reunions". This doesn't exist for me. My family has always been solid and welcoming - even those we only see once a year. The conversation is light and fun - we play games and eat - and share our lives.

But back to inspiration - my grandparents, within the last 10 years, have been a constant source of inspiration for me. My grandmother passed away a year and half ago and most days I think about her in some way or another. I keep a few small replicas of her paintings on my desk at work. As Joel and I pulled up to the house on Sunday - I had a sudden and forceful set of emotions hit me. Most days, my memories of her are just that, memories. But when they come to life, like at her house, I can't help but miss her. She aged so beautifully, and she tackled cancer as if it would never take her down. Grandma and I shared a relationship like I have not seen much between a Grandma and her granddaughter. If you're interested, check out the blog we started to keep memories of her alive http://www.carpentertradition.blogspot.com.

As I walked through the house looking at pictures of her and remembering our sweet time together (especially the 3 years before she died) - another set of emotions washed over me. I had this thought and I think it often - she would be so proud of my grandpa. He has chosen to live through his incredible loss. He works and plays with great joy. He rides his new bike. He travels like a trooper. He keeps up with his chores (which he does on a very regimented schedule). And he continues to gather his family together. I am proud, and she would be too. She has left a deep mark on me and my cousins that will continue to inspire us for our lives. I look forward to telling my children the stories of her courage. I am grateful she shared them with me. And my grandpa continues to inspire me each time I see him.

My inspiration comes differently now, but no less true and colorful. My heart is filled to overflowing.

(Don't miss Grandpa's inspiring words on his shirt!)

http://www.klullo.shutterfly.com/

the keys to our sanity (or so we'd like to think)

2009-07-21T08:49:00.006-05:00

Each of us has our own way of relaxing. For Joel, it's working in the garage. For me, it's knitting. Unfortunately for Joel, sometimes his relaxing and our house projects overlap. But for those of you who aren't here (or haven't been to the house in awhile)... here is what Joel finished up a couple weeks ago:

Before this... there was a black wraught iron railing that was of no use to anyone. Now the railing matches the house (and even the staircase in the house). I'm proud :)

As for me, only rarely does knitting turn into a "project". Now is not one of those times! I have only knit a handful of things for myself. I finished up a shawl earlier this year, but it can only rarely be used (I haven't exactly figured out how to wear it yet!) But now... I am knitting a sweater. Here is what I have so far:

It may not look like much right now... but you just wait! It will be lovely to wear in October in Italy!

how do you know if you've had a good weekend...

2009-07-21T08:26:00.008-05:00

Well, it could be that you've been to Disneyland or Fratello's or Italy... or it could be that you accomplished a few things and spent some good time relaxing.

Ours was the latter.

Here is a good indication that we had a good weekend...

1) There was food involved in most of the weekend... Saturday morning we got up and road our bikes to the farmer's market, and then to Aldi. There is something about picking up locally grown food on your bike. Does it taste better? Maybe... or maybe that's in my mind. But here is the result of our trip (we then spent Saturday evening sharing this with some new friends of ours). 2) Joel was able to finish up a project on Friday - that I have to say I am quite proud of. He bid on this, won the bid, and did a beautiful job. From this job, he has picked up two more... what can I say, he knows what he's doing! The line is forming... so please let him know if you have some work!

3) Another succesful part of the weekend may not have been the most fun, but it needed to be done... weeding. I only spent an hour on it (Sunday night at the last possible minute), but it did feel good when it was cleaned up a bit. But a question has been haunting me for five years now... what is this plant? It is a perenial... it has the fragrant smell (like an herb) but grows up from one central point (like a bush). And the bees LOVE IT! If you have any idea... let me know!

4) We rested. We watched a few documentaries on Italy (one of the ways we're prepping). We socialized a little. We went to church. We read some of overwhelming volume of magazines (ps- if you like magazines, ask me how I get them free). I knit some more. Joel played in the garage a little (he got new tool bags... and you would think someone just sent him a million dollars!) That to us was a good weekend. Here's how I knew I had succeeded:

the way summer should be

2009-07-14T16:45:00.004-05:00

The last two weekends for me have been a taste of the way summer should be. Busy enough to have fun things going on, but not so busy that you miss the world around you.

My theory is that we are truly in control of how busy we let our lives get. No one can busy it for us - it's a decision we make. So Joel and I have decided recently to not let our schedule control us, but to be in control of it. We've prioritized doing the things we always put off and spending time with important people in our lives.

This weekened was a perfect example of that.

Saturday we met my parents in Milwaukee. The Lullo's always keep themselves busy, and so the best bet for matching busy schedules up was to meet half way. We found this great place in Milwaukee called the Public Market where picked up some great food (and some yummy spices).

This is where it gets interesting.

We knew that we wanted to head towards Lake Michigan - so my dad got directions and we headed out. The man who gave my dad directions said, if you go to the second beach, that's where the circus is. I was reminded that the Great Circus Parade was in town doing a festival (and parade on Sunday - which we missed). As we drove closer to the site, chairs began popping up along the road, then tents, then duct tape marking off people's whole blocks of space. Traffic got very heavy and we began to see the tents. The only way we could figure out how to get any closer to the water, was to park near the festivities, eat along the water, and then join in ourselves.

Lunch was fabulous - my dad even thought to bring beer - which was a nice touch to the day. We then walked around the festival grounds. The parade floats (if that's what you want to call them) were out getting a final wash down before the big event. They were bringing out the horses to hook them up for one last practice. It was a great way to get side-tracked together. Next time we just need to plan better to actually be there for the parade. (Side-note: my parents took us when we were much younger, and I still can picture the elephants walking down the streets of Milwaukee).

Joel and I were able to hang out a little while longer - we found a park bench, talked a little, thought a little, and remembered that "this is the life". We are truly blessed.

We ended the night at Lifest. There are too many things I can say here - but my soap box may not be appreciated by all. Let's just say Joel and I walked many circles around that place trying to avoid the people wearing t-shirts that said "Free hugs" and the cheesy Christian lingo that I worked to avoid a long time ago. I just want to say that I think God is about so much more than we give Him room for. I think the best thing I heard all night was from one of two musicians I cared to see. His name is Derek Webb and though I can't quote him, he said something to the effect that in the "Christian culture", especially in Christian art, we write music or paint or sculpt about the 2% of "spiritual stuff" out there, and miss the fact that God is God of all things in life - sex, politics, nature, love - everything. And if he is God over everything, why do we only talk about the 2% that we deem as spiritual? Phew - I better stop not, or you might never come back to read more....

All in all - after a weekend like this, I felt like I could breath again. We spent Sunday around the house - and I even got a chance to read for several hours.

It felt great.

up nort - we return

2009-07-09T08:13:00.005-05:00

4th of July on a lake, on a boat, watching fireworks, catching fish - I think that's the life!

It was different than we imagined, and different than before for Joel. The cousins are growing up, most are married, and several have small children. The-drinking-all-day-on-a-fishing-boat days are over. There is still a lot of fishing and card playing - and still a few drinks. But at the end of the night, there were only 3 left around the fire (making s'mores for the rest who were card playing in the house). It was quiet and really nice. We slept a bunch, and ate a bunch (this particular family is oh-so health concious!) The joke with the Hintz's is that if it's fried in canola oil or has some sort of nuts or fruit in it, then it is healthy. Therefore, oatmeal raising cookies and white chocolate nut cookies, are healthy. Caramel bun breakfast with nuts is healthy - and chips fried in canola oil are healthy.

It didn't help my diet much - but it was very tasty!

Brinley's presence was an absolute joy for me - she is precious and smiley and barely ever fussy!

The best times for me were going fishing as the sun was setting - there was always a boat full, the view was stunning, and the conversation jovial. If not for the insane amount of bugs - it was perfect.

And it continues...

This weekend we have more fun plans. Tonight, we get drinks with Dan - who we haven't spent time with in awhile - at one of my new favorite places, Red and White. Saturday we are meeting my parents in downtown Milwaukee to go to the Urban Farmer's Market and then have lunch on the lakefront. After that we're heading to Oshkosh for Lifest and Third Day - Joel won us free day passes. We're hoping to connect with a few people (possibly Mike or Ashley) - and enjoy a night out!

up nort'

2009-07-01T08:19:00.002-05:00

All this time I've lived in Wisconsin (going on 6 years in August), I haven't spent much time "up nort'".... and then I got married. Now we go camping "up nort'" and, in the case of this weekend, we even go to the cottage "up nort".

The cottage is an incredible Hintz tradition. They find as many cousins as possible (I think we were over twenty last year) and cram them all into a space meant for 5 (well, I guess they have the bunkhouse now, which will fit another 10). Though we're not sure how many are coming this year, we are planning for the possibility of camping out in the tent.

The great part is getting to be with family, especially as the family grows in numbers. This year we get the addition of Brinley - who through her short time with Joel - has absolutely melted Joel's heart. I look forward to getting a chance to snuggle her, while also getting time to lay in the sun and read with my sisters-in-law. I am truly blessed.

On another note, the summer seems to have gotten away with us - and we are in the process of reclaiming it! We're hoping to meet up with my parents next weekend somewhere in the middle, and then get a weekend or two at home.

Plans for Italy haven't moved much since the apartments were booked - but we have read more of the travel book and we're planning to watch a few movies set in Florence and Rome. This weekend I'm planning on reading Angels and Demons - which is set in Rome and supposedly very descriptive! Then I have to plan our train travel! Looking forward to it!

when in rome...

2009-06-25T09:03:00.001-05:00

Our adventure began months ago - we decided when we got married, that we would begin a fund for a major, one-year anniversary celebration. Half of each of my paychecks would go into this fund, and when finished, we'd make arrangements to head to Italy for two weeks!

9 months later - the tickets have been purchased, apartments have been reserved, and now we get to plan the fun stuff!

Our tentative itinerary is Florence, Cinque Terre, and Rome with possible day trips to Siena or Lucca, and Pompeii. Now I just have to figure out how to get between these places (as in, how to use the trains in Italy).

The adventure of finding apartments has been crazy, but only took me about 5 days to secure 3 different places that I'm crossing my fingers about. Two had great reviews - the third is a shot in the dark! Our only drawback is that none have a washing machine - but I think we'll just spend some time at a laundromat in Rome (which I've been told is easy).

Here are the links to each of our "apartments".

This is our apartment in Manarola (one of the Cinque Terre) - super excited about the view!

http://www.dapaulin.it/app3_eng.html

Florence - cute, so we're crossing our fingers!

http://www.holiday-rentals.co.uk/Italy/Tuscany/Florence-Area/holiday-apartment-Florence/p71755.htm

Our tiny home in Rome - nice and sunny, though! And it looks fairly central!

http://www.romanreference.com/appartamento.php?refid=366

So, here we go!